First Year Teacher
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I have to admit that I have lost my sense of humor about this eye thing. It was funny at first. But now, there is a hurricane outside my window and I am all alone in this building, which is an eighteen foot tower. The wind is whistling outside and it sounds like this whole place is going to come crashing down. So all day I have been trying to keep tabs on the internet, hoping fervently that if I should evacuate I could figure it out on my own. The world assumes that no one is in this building, so I don't think anyone would tell me if I should go. It is all very upsetting.
Not to mention the fact that all of the skin on my face is stretched to ginormus porpotions and it really hurts. And I have a fever and I feel shitty. Whine, whine, whine.
I am also afraid that they are going to make me go to work tomorrow while looking like a freak. It is parent day at my school, which means there will be parents watching me teach. I will be wearing sunglasses and a hat if I go. I'm sure I will really wow them. I don't want to gooooooo!
Ugh.
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Ahhhhh. I am writing this peeking out of a millimeter of a crack that my eyes can see through. Yes, they are swollen shut, as promised. What is halarious about this place is that some folks are pretty jealous of my swollen face because it means that I missed school today. And I have to admit that I am pretty happy...except for that my whole face is on fire and I look exactly like a pig. It is quite painful and to make it even more attractive, my eyes are oozing.
Oh, and did I mention that bugs in Houston? Not just the giant cockroaches, but the spiders? Yeah, well something bit my left underarm (not exaggerating) about thirty times. They are not just like mosquito bites, but more like welts. And they have started to break open and bleed. I have had them for about a week. They itch like crazy and they hurt.
So Nicole, I am also struggling with body issues here at institute. Mine are a little more public. I am going to go try to find a hat to wear so that I can venture into the world to eat and smoke a cigarette.
God, please make Houston go away. Please, please, please.
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Some of you will find this more funny than others...
So I was looking to feel good about something today and decided to treat myself to an eyebrow waxing and a manicure. It was great and I felt all spiffed up and then...
Yes, some of you know what comes next. My eyes are presently swelling shut. It has happened before. It is happening now. Let me explain. I am allergic to mangos and papayas like death. Apparently, lots of lotions have these things in them. The place I always went to in Oakland did not have it in their lotion. But I am finding that places in both San Francisco and Houston do use it. Anyway, my eyes do not look that bad right now. Although my friend Terri looked at me around 8:30pm (we were in a very serious meeting) and said, "It really doesn't look bad" and then looked at me around 8:40pm and couldn't stop laughing. It is fast and serious.
The little blisters are forming on my eyelids. I am beginning to squint. I feel a lot like I imagine a racoon might feel...if the black color on his face was on fire. It's okay. You can laugh.